The next day I went to the stratosphere. They have a bungee jump experience. I paid to go on it. And I ran through all the safety checks. The stratosphere crew put all the harnesses on me. I walked on to the plank of the stratosphere jump I felt the wind whipping my face both ways, and I put myself in the clients position, I imagine what it would be like to be suicidal and wanting to jump… my first thoughts was this is scary, and before I ever get to this point, I better exhaust every other possibility to resolve my problem because anythings gotta be better than this.
Taking a jump without a bungee cord and a safety harness looks painful. I don’t think jumping from a building is cowardly, it think it’s courageous, and to be frank if you have that much courage to jump then certainly you have enough courage to figure a better solution out.
After that thought experiment. I went and spent 4 hours riding the rides on the top of the stratosphere practicing breathing exercises to keep myself calm. It was interesting.